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Riddles...

Tue Mar 20, 2007, 7:56 AM

Mood: Suffering
Listening to: Message beeping
Watching: cigarettes lose their edge
Drinking: nothing strong enough...

I should have paid her I think I would have felt better. I knew the guilt would sink in and I had to make it abandon me before I do something stupid with this pistol. I cannot explain how empty I feel today. It might be the night time lights and colors that draw you to confess your pleasures to worn out lovers. Take my wallet-it’s all yours.
In fact I am serving my dignity on the house. You can have my life if I can have yours for a few hours. I seem to be the cause for my own troubles these days. A beautiful type of laughter soak up the gasps and I kill the karma there and then. Dear friend we violated our friendship. Vodka filled tears drip from our transparent happiness . I am so tired. So sick on the inside. A hole a huge hole. I am not asking for much just love in the end. I smell of rum I smell of fear I smell...really bad. The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists in tact is to realize two out of three aint bad. Somebody to fix me and my crooked ways of thinking and rationalizing. I don’t know how to get out anymore I have been walking through the streets so long I know it like the souls of my feet. My palms are raw with expectations for real loving touches. Because last years wishes are this years apologies. The words get to me. The new face of failure. Not any better off though. Loneliness at best...
18 at best…

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~Only-my Mar 20, 2007, 3:54:49 PM

Hey,

Don't feel afraid. That person will come. Shit It doesn't feel that way ever, but I suppose we could be hopefull. We both are waiting.

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Trust the POWER !!!

~PixelsAndGiggles Mar 21, 2007, 4:10:15 AM

"Somewhere between my tongue and cheek
I can feel the hands on me
Pulls me in so we are face to face
I don't wanna see it...I don't wanna see
Hold my head up, can't avert my eyes
Spots and rats on me, I don't wanna see
Claw the ground up, get me out of this
Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!

And you left me / and I left you
And you left me / and I left you, too

Chair is stained and I can't stay awake
Bring forth evidence to keep me sane
I can't keep this riddle locked inside
Seven ways to keep my secrets tied

Can't believe this, I belong in chains
Separated, it was me and something else
Now I'm numbing, get me out of this
Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!

And you left me / and I left you
And you left me / oh, but then I left you and:
And you left me / and I left you
And you left me / and I left you, too

Arms stretched out, giving thanks to pain
Spotlight looking down, I'm ashamed
Kneeling with my forehead to the ground
I can't help but flinch before I'm found

I DON'T NEED YOU! Can't you see behind?
Doesn't matter now - DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE!
Maybe made me, get me out of this
Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!

And you left me / and I left you
And you left me / and motherfucker, then I left you and...
And you left me / and I left you
And you left me / and I left you, too

SAFE! I JUST WANT TO BE SAFE!
SAFE! I JUST - WANT TO - BE SAFE!
SAFE! DON'T YOU WANT TO BE SAFE?
SAFE! WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME BE - SAFE?"

sometimes i get these moments when i get really pissed with my past...

so i rant

stonesour - blotter

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MeLiSsA-
"a day late, a buck short, i'm writing a report on losing and failing-
well i guess this is growing up"

~DelusionalBunnikid Mar 21, 2007, 11:09:51 AM

Mothertrucker love!!!did your rant that?its friggen amazing!Who ever said bushclovers didnt have hidden talents?
Thanx fro sharing its soo danm true!!!

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I'm an addict for dramatics i confuse the two for love...

~DelusionalBunnikid Mar 21, 2007, 11:11:31 AM

Yeah...but somehow the stings stick to your skin and you know you have to let go but you friggen just dont want to...like a stuborn child!

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I'm an addict for dramatics i confuse the two for love...

~Only-my Mar 21, 2007, 11:44:16 AM

it's funny how the both are in similar type of situations at the mo.

Jea agree with you that the sting tends to tends to leave a mark. Either never dissapears or takes quite a while

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Trust the POWER !!!