Hahaha...i turned 18 resently...and i realised that ppl just never change..not really?!They might just morph in some situations.Its entertaining to watch these people interact.Had a huge bday bash...was so awesume
Thanx to my h-town kids who came through for me...most of you nway..lol
No glasses were broken...and no1s drinks were spilled...haha
Nway...im older now and not at all ready for the life ahead from here on.but atleast ill always be me and my friends r ppl who will always stay in my life
I dedicate this journal entry to the bosklowers!
mwah kiddos

I sat with a gospel tune swingin in my head
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I wished you would sit on my lap and tell me stories
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Hoping your fragile illness will lie for you
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Trying to remember what a heatebeat means
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Took the last bottle with you and your new love
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Watched you trip over the bodies in the hall
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Down the stairs perfectly bruised
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You lied and screamed I pushed you down
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Pointing to the one truth you had left
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Now watch me kill you without my conscience
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I let you chew up my heart and spit it out in a different color
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I thought of your kisses how abusive they use to feel
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Now the lust went straight to my head
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I cut up our bulimic memories and
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Burned your touches off my pale skin
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Drag your cigarette smiles to bed with him
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I applaud you for being a sport sweetheart
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These were our best years...
LoVe
Bunnikid

Michelle

Why do you have to be so obvious?
Couldn’t you kiss me without conscience
Cause then...maybe then
I wouldn’t feel like such a jerk

i still miss you like i said i would

Can you promise me a hand one day?
Would you remember me if i fail you for some reason
Cause then...maybe then
I could show you what i am like

i still miss you like i said i would

I want to take you flying
To the top of every one of your dreams
I’m still the guy who has rent-a-shoulder written on him
I want the sunset to drop to your feet
Cause you deserve all the spotlights on you

i am tired of telling you everything you already know

If we cut out the bad
Well then we’d have nothing left
Like I cut up your mouth
The night I stuffed it all in
And you lied to the Angel
Said I stabbed you to death
If we go at the same time
They'll clean up the mess

I lost my head
You couldn’t come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun

Watched you bite into the bottle
Watched me kick out the chair
Let you chew up the glass
And laughed as you just hung there
I have thought of rose petals mostly perfect and pure
Then I thought of your petals
And the abuse they’ve been through

I told the angels
Cant stay in heaven
I asked the devil
If we cut out the bad well then we'd have nothing left
Like I cut up your angels
Yeah you stabbed me to death

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart
But where's your heart
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights to cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A loveless soul demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A loveless soul demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

These bright lights are always bright to me
These bright lights are always bright to me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead